Bismillah.

Great Praise to Allah where I still have an opportunity to live & breath.

It’s quite hectic and frantic nowadays.

*need to complete & submit the assignment(s)

*do revision for midterm test & for this coming final. (ouch!)

Haha.

When I was typing this post, I kept thinking.

Either to tell OR not to tell.

………..Thinking………..

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STOP!

Its quite annoying *me, yelling over myself*

Ok.

The story(ies) goes like this.

FIRST

While having a casual chit-chatting with my friend(s),

Suddenly she asked me; “How does it feel after being JILTED by your ex?”

Me : MY! Is that so important?

Friend of mine : Just asking. Take it easy, dear .Eagerly to know how does it feel.

Me: HUH! it’s ok. Being JILTED of course and surely at first I felt so DUMP-ed and DUMB-ed. But it doesn’t take a looooooong time. Past is past. Come on. I still young & charm. I got so many things to do rather than to think about a USELESS thing done by a USELESS-man.

Friend : whoooa! Sound harsh.

Me : Why not. He’s totally deserved that kind of words, right?

Friend : Absolutely. Dumb man deserved dumb word. hahaha.

Me : hahaha. Skunk! You are more rude than me.

*shut directly on betrayal-junkies b***

SECOND

I found two guys, with different personalities & different styles.

Both are totally differ and both had their own uniqueness.

First guy.

· He has a complete package.

· Handsome & good-looking. An Asian look combination of Malay plus Javanese look.

· Prosperous – observed from his money-spending.

· Outspoken.-he will argue politely but saying it out vocally.

· Good in musical instruments- he can plays guitar, flute and many. He has good musician-ship in himself.

· He has melodious voice too. He can sing well. His voice bit like Faizal Tahir and sometimes sounds like David Cook. *I Like*

Second guy,

· Not so handsome but nice to see.

· Come from an ordinary family.

· Quite shy & silent. -But when he’d started to say something, better watch out! His words greater sharp than a sword!

· He’s an al-hafiz, who memorized the Quran by heart.

· He has melodious voice too. It was too heart-trembling when hear his harmonious Quran recitation.

Haha.

Don’t get wrong.

These two guys just have different personalities that catches my eyes not this little-tiny-pieces-broken-heart .Yet. Hopefully.

Past experiences taught me to think twice and even more than twice.

Malay idiom says: “Do not let banana make fruit twice”-Jangan sampai pisang berbuah 2 kali.

I really extremely dislike with this kind of feeling.

Have you ever been, you are in ‘OK’ state but sometimes this weird feeling disturbed you.

MY!

Can anyone help me?

You simply look cool, chill & nothing happened, from the outside.

But deeeeeeeeep inside….

You are half-died struggling not to show-it-from your friends, family & siblings.

Is it can be classified as hypocrite?

Am I a liar?

Friends. I do sorry. Deeply sorry. I’m not intend to lie upon you.

But.

I just can’t tell the truth.

I just can’t.

It might be hurt you where it definitely hurt-ed me too.

To tell you the truth is just like ;

I have to drink a bottle of chlorine.

Or slicing this not-too-tiny-fatty-little fingers of mine.

Or get crashed over the high-speed-bus.

(Ok. Stop. too much exaggerating here.)

Love to be ‘an observer’ rather than ‘the actor’ or ‘the player’.

“Safeguarding myself not to stray too far from the sidewalk.”

Ok.

That’s all for this time being.

See you next.

*BIG Smile plus BIG hug*

p/s : Money is not everything. But everything needs money. Without money, YOU and I were BOTH NOTHING.

p/s/s : I’m still waiting for my delayed scholarship payment(s). MY!